Currently Playing Elliott Smith By Elliott Smith see related

so the tow (temp) who used to work here doesnt work here ne more...how sad!! i really liked having someone to talk to and laugh w/ here at work...cool ppl are few and far between here.

rite now, i just have so much going on that i'm in shut-down mode. i feel pulled in many different directions, and i know i can't sustain this feeling for long. when will i learn that i can't make everyone happy? so i'm helping my parents w/ their impending move due to the remodeling of their home. i know they're stressed, but i feel like that stress is transferred to me since i'm the closest to them.

you know how when you're in college and you have all these great expectations of what life is going to be like after you graduate? how everything in life unraveled so perfectly in your imaginings of what the future would be like? reality, however, is an entirely different thing. and i think that's what's the most disheartening. i feel like i did everything i can to get to where i want, and i'm not there yet. my mom says i'm impatient because i'm young. i don't think i'm impatient...idealistic, maybe. i don't want to turn into one of those jaded people, though. those people who stop caring. i just feel incredibly lost at times.

Currently Playing Have You Fed the Fish By Badly Drawn Boy see related

so many ppl are not going to be in my division!! sadness! we're having a going away thing for them after work . I told tmy boss that if ALL these ppl are leaving and it meant more work, that i wouldn't just need a drink, id need a bottle...she agreed.

one of my friends frm work came by...shes now 7 months pregnant!! its so weird..i have another friend who's wife will give birth around the same time...its so weird to have friends who have these immensley grown up lives. it's amazing that someone my age can have children..when did we become grown ups? i gotta get crackin on the stuff i have to crochet for their babies!!

Currently Playing District Sleeps Alone Tonight By Postal Service see related

so i haven't logged on in a while. this weekend, i got to spend time w/ maggie for her bday (yay!) along w/ ben and some other ppl. we went to dinner and also watched in good company (great movie). it was really nice to talk to her and catch up. on sunday, i went to the aquarium of the pacific w/ sagy's bros and his bro's new gf. it was really nice...the weather cooperated, and after the aquarium, we went to get margaritas at a place near the pier in long beach. his family is always fun to be around...they always make me feel like part of the family.

i still miss having my bro nearby. it's so weird not having him a 15 minute drive away. but i think this is a great experience for him to just think and put things in perspective. although i have sworn off matchmaking im still thinking of introducing ben to someone i know at work...she's really cool, and cute, and smart. we'll see...i just can't help but set people up! it's an addiction!

Currently Playing In the Aeroplane Over the Sea By Neutral Milk Hotel see related

i feel such a sense of accomplishment!! i was trying to crochet a beanie, and i couldn't figure out why it was spiraling out of control (literally). yay for lisa who showed me the error of my ways. it seems as though EVERYONE is getting engaged/married this year...it's so cute! it feels so weird, like we're supposed to be all grown up, and sometimes i feel like i can fit into that role, but sometimes i still feel like a kid. i just dont know when we all crossed that line into adulthood. i feel like i haven't changed at all, but when i really stop to think about it, i have changed a lot since graduating.

so i'm on the transfer list (again)...i'll be happy if i get to go, but i'll also miss some people here...my boss and i understand each other really well, and some other ppl ive grown really close to. but hey, thats life, rite?

yay me, i can knit a beanie!

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